Catch-up, choices, and chaos...

Here is a devulging of the innermost...Its like vomitting your emotion...So bear with me, some makes sense, some doesn't...I have to remind myself not to "proofread" as I type. But I haven't blogged in a while, journalled almost as little, but when I have journaled I have been good at it...Long and hardy words of me...So here is my life in a nutshell to this point...like I said, bear with me. Some are older entries and some are newer and I may combine two in to one post, or I may break them all down...And if you read my words and think, what is her problem, she is so not suffereing, then A) I didn't communicate clearly enough, B) you should ask for me to pray for you cause you may be worse off, and C) you broke the only rule I had in reading my blogs--Don't judge me please!