Ok, this is a journal excerpt from 2006! It is SOOO relevant in my life right now...
I am reading about the grace of God right now and I gotta be honest. I feel bi-polar, schizo, multiple personality--down one minute (Romans 1-3) and up the next (Romans 3:20 to end). Whew! I read about how awful we humans are (tsunami of guilt much?) and how perfection is needed and we will never be that. Um, hi, big bummer. Totally hopeless, right? The BAM! God plops a big, fat helping of Grace and says "Of course you can't, but I CAN!" Oh, wow that was close. I wasn't sure if I would ever get out of my pjs again. Just when I think I can't sink any lower, you go and completely redeem me. A new creation, you say? That is so hard to fathom. I don't look new outwardly, but I do feel a bit more, oh what's the word, yeah, NEW, inside. I am thinking more now about life, love, and how I fit in to this puzzle we call living for Christ. What's His plan? Well, for me to go to heaven..given. But this earthly plan question seems to be a recurring theme for me. Maybe I am missing the obvious.
"Experience my love"
Maybe I need to pray harder?
"Experience my love"
I don't know. I will just sit and wait. Maybe I need to sit and wait.
"Experience my grace"
What? God? Did you say something?
"Experience my love. Experience my Grace."
Oh, that's your plan?
"Experience my love. Experience my Grace."
Ok, if you say so. That's what I will do. Thanks. I love you, dad.
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